Compensation

 
If I presume to think
one moment of despair
has helped to change this,
my blinded suffering
where no answer seemed,
then it was prayer.
The silent fight and bitter anger
against that cowardice,
all this was prayer
and for the one courageous gesture,
more joy than others’ ninety-nine.
The thanksgiving
because its strength
was partly earned with mine.
 
Surely, great God in whom we live,
through us a river flows
and all the struggling currents
work towards life
as one who loves you knows
 
                                                                                                (1970s ?)